Things have been mighty… odd… lately. Odd for me, anyway. I’m normally a very steady person, and through everything that’s been going on collectively I’ve maintained my steadiness, but I’m still feeling overwhelmed.
Stress, it turns out, is a much more powerful thing than most people want to think or admit. Who’da thunk it? The older I get the more things become become obvious, things that you grow up denying and claiming you’re above them, but really have a much greater impact on you than you want them to have. And if you stand back and just watch other people, you can see it in them, too. Stress is one of those things.
Anyway, dropping my calculus class was a great decision. I have a Toastmasters event coming up, and was asked to help in a specific role, but I had to turn it down. Right now I feel like I have enough on my plate (no pun intended), and shouldn’t be adding more. Plus, I’m not sure I could have given it the attention it deserves, so it’s best to let someone else do it.
Anyway, the weight loss is treading water right now. I’ve been struggling with cheating. I have a big thing with not making excuses, and when I say I eat irresponsibly due to stress that’s what I feel like I’m doing, making excuses. They say you’re not supposed to do that, but that’s how my mind works.
My dip into the 220s was awesome. As I write this I’m just a tad above 230, but really that’s not bad, so I’ll take it. Last couple days I’ve done better, and feel like I’m getting back on track. I’m getting to where I really like the shakes (as long as they’re made with either cold water or ice). I haven’t made a muffin in probably two months now, but I’m feeling like I’d be ok with them now. In other words, my tastes are fluid and adjusting as I go along, so the moral to this story is: When doing a program of any kind, don’t get too hung up on only one or two things, lest you get burnt out on those and put your entire program in jeopardy.
I think I’ve figured out that sodium is going to be an issue for the rest of my life. That’s a new realization. If I eat a lot of sodium I feel it, achy joints, stiffness, etc. What’s really interesting is that since I’ve been eating better when I do eat something high in sodium I really taste it and it is no longer as appealing to me as it used to be.
That’s it, just random stuff. New realizations. New Discoveries. New knowledge.